PMS, Anger, Frustration and its aftermath!

Do you want to bang your head against the wall somedays just because there was another dish to be washed not too long after you did a thousand dishes? Do you feel like you do so much and there seems to be nobody even bothered about it? Do you want to whack the brains out of your toddler simply because he wanted your attention but you were busy? And does all this happen mostly around when its that 'time of the month'??

Im not sure how, when, where or why this has been going on but Im pretty darn sure its PMS. Because I feel downright frustrated, short tempered and get absolutely cheezed off for every little thing around the time of my monthly cycle. Not to mention it has a mind of its own, thanks to PCOS that continues to linger on.

I've seen that working out and following a healthy diet does affect this syndrome. When I do rigorous workouts and watch what I eat the symptoms of PMS such as anger and frustration dont show up as much as the other physical aspects of PMS (bloating, sugary/salty food cravings etc.) which persist to some extent no matter what I do.

Sadly for me, it becomes a catch 22 situation sometimes. And most of the times its when Im taking a break from working out and head into my PMS days that I begin craving chocolate and chips. Yumm! And bang, the next thing you know, Im SO ANGRY and thumping my feet on the floor (Neha do you feel the building vibrate or something??) because something did not happen my way. But if I avoid all this junk then Im a lot better. Ive observed it over months now. But, everyone needs a break, right??!!!

Well here's the real thing that is bothering me. I get upset. So much that I display violent actions in front of Samvit when I'm in those horrible PMS days. On normal days I do get angry too but it dies down fast and then Im like trying to console Samvit and play and all that.... you know, just the normal modus operandi!

But before my cycle, I can be a terror! And sometimes I feel that is getting incorporated in him as a way of handling his own anger. Because these days when he does not get his way he tends to bite and pinch and gets physical. Im afraid if this pattern continues then he might get violent when he goes to school, and worse later!!

To add to it he is in a phase that is termed as the 'terrible twos'. Just adds to the misery on pre-mentrual days. Some days I end up crying when Im alone. But once the cycle is over and done with Im all smiles and just the happy person I had been before. I have a feeling that this upheavel has mostly occured post-delivery. You know, with hormones going crazy thru pregnancy and then post delivery (and PCOS to compound it all!!). I never felt all this pre-pregnancy. Im pretty sure of that and those who know me would agree and not believe that Ive become one wreck of nerves.

My mom keeps telling me to calm down and all that. But its just not that easy. My hubby sees me acting like a tornado but cannot do much except tell me to stay cool because its not Samvit's fault. I agree. But Im not able to stop myself. Its like ther is some invisible power that controlling my emotions.... Um, on second thoughts, it is!!

I'm just pretty worried about the way its all going. And I just needed to share it with people who'd understand and relate to it in some way if not all. Any of you out here going thru all this? How do you handle it?? Let me know!!

Welcome Sadhana Sen

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Sadhana Sen is Anitha P B's friend and lives in Auckland, NZ. She has a five month old daughter, Ritisha.

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Anitha P B

My Information
Name – Anitha Pissay Balakrishna
Profession - Looking of a break. currently working part time
Husband's Name – Srinivasa Rao
Husband's Profession - Research Scientist, Working for Novartis
DOB – 14*August
Wedded Since – 22*May*2003


Interests - Music, dance, reading, working out, teaching Shreyas
About Me - Born and lived my entire life in Bangalore till marriage catapulted me to Singapore. Completed my Masters in Statistics after marriage and with Shreyas in hand (I was pregnant when I started the course).

Son’s Information
Shreyas - Boy, 10*March*2006

A-Z of Animals!!!!

How do I stop??? NO not stop...satisfy my son's hunger to know 5 animals of all the letters of the alphabets.....Yes!!! You read right!!! 5 animals each for the letters A-to-Z

Shreyas, being a 3+ years old boy is crazy...definitely I can say crazy about animals...how??? He imagines every morsel of his chapathi as an animal.."What is this animal???" (What he means to ask is , which animal does the shape resemble??) he questions me every time he takes a bite.

Last Sunday after an outing to the well lit Orchard Road (Chirstmas season has begun) on the way back home in the bus, Shreyas, started asking "What animal?" His way of letting me know to ask him questions. So I began with Which is the biggest Animal? Tallest Animal? Fastest Animal?Slowest Animal? Animal with longest neck? Longest nose? lots of hair on the face? fastest Bird? biggest Bird? and so on....he finished answering me.....Again he wanted me to ask more questions...for which I began give me 5 animals under the sea? 5 birds which lives in Water and so on....

Later, after a much needed silence of 5 so mins..(I guess I triggered his quest here) He started with his list...(Well let me highlight here that he knows A to Z of the alphabets in an order without any help and recite A-Z of animals...including I for Iguana, Q for Quail Bird and X for X-Ray fish). As I was saying, his list for 5 animals each...

A for Aardvark, Alligator, Armadillo, Angelfish, Anaconda , Aye Aye (My son remembered this from his book)....
B for .........
"Mummy, Mummy! Which 5 animals....bear, bull, buffalo,beaver...hmmm...what animal ?"
L for Lion, Lemur......
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I could get away with easy ones like O - Oclet, Octopus, Orangutan, Owl, Otter, Ox, Okapi (He know all the animals listed here). But for the difficult ones, I was thoroughly lost for animals for letters like E, Q, N , X, V, Z and more ( I couldnt get 5 animals each for these)

Every night he reads ( I read for him) fact books on animals (those mini encyclopedia kinds) repeatedly( I have lost count).... When we go for outings he wants to buy Animals, Animal Books, anything related to animals...

After this incident, today, I started to search on the web for the A-Z of animals and got this beautiful interesting site on the list... http://animals.nationalgeographic.com/animals/a-to-z . It lists all the animals with pictures, which I thought I can share with my fellow moms......

I have booked tickets to visit the Zoo this Saturday, 14th November 2009. He is all eager and awaiting this trip to the zoo. ( in this pretext, I blackmail him to do his things right and behave, OR ELSE ..... ) I know its a little crime, but hey Its ok once in a while...

All I can pray is God give me the awareness and strength to meet my son's quest for knowledge....

It's a Vanity Affair!..or is it??

Feels like yesterday when I used to complain to my mom about her sense of dressing, make up and style. I cannot forget how I whined and got annoyed at the fact that she used to apply the brightest available shade of red at the last minute...almost at the moment when we have to step out of the door for a wedding or a get-together, making her nails looking like half baked cherries in a pie. I would be so angry with her for over applying her make up making her face look like a 3 inch thick pancake.

But today, when its time to head out and socialize I find myself rushing to get myself all groomed up and to say the least, end up looking far worse than what my mom did. In fact, coming to think of it, she looked so beautiful no matter what she did (or did not) do to herself. I'm sure our kids will say the same to us when they get to this stage too.. but what Im coming at is the point that what seemed so essential at one time has now dwindled down our priority list.

I could'nt care lesser about having matching nail polish shades on my finger nails and toes...or for that matter, not having it at all!! I could'nt care lesser if I wore the same dress over the last two occassions simply because it was the one that was right on top of the pile of clothes in my wardrobe. I could'nt care lesser if I had a bad hair day... all I care now is if my son has a good pair of trousers and shirt to wear. Do his socks match his outfit? Does he need a different hair-cut? Are his nails clipped? How about his jacket? (Gosh, Im thanking my stars I dont have a baby girl...I'd go bonkers!!)

How things change... and it happens in the most amazing (sometimes annoying too) way!!! So the last time when I met Mom when we were in India (that was last year when Sam was around 9 months), I... was the one rushing up with my eyeliner and she stood there behind me, still looking as beautiful as ever....and as unhassled as ever!

How things change!!